Argh. There are questions, and so we wait. I truly hate to wait at this point. I know that it is the right thing to do.. but it is not easy. A big part of me is screaming 'GO'.. and a much smaller and logical/rational side is whispering 'make an informed decision'. Meanwhile, there is a child waiting on this decision.. and every day that we delay our decision, is a day that the child waits.. and a day that we wait.. and a day that we potentially miss being together.
For those of you out there who battled infertility.. the emotions during this time are a bit like POAS after a looong wait for the right moment.. and then not quite being able to make out the result. Dim the lights, turn it to a 42.5 degree angle, squint your left eye and it looks like a....
Ha.. that comparison just reminded me of fertility forums that I used to be on, and seeing people post photographs of their results b/c they were not sure what they said and they wanted other opinions! That's how I feel - though I require interpretation by someone in a different country and time-zone with no access to internet (omg!).
Anyhow, this might be a female thing.. I don't know. I do know that dh is not stressing over this.. he is calm and just accepting the wait to hear more information. Which, frankly, is not helpful either! You know how it is - when you are feeling the need to obsess over something like this, you want companionship on that road! Oh well. What shall be shall be. I guess it's a good time to put my mind on other things.. like the fact that we are flying to Mexico in a few days, and I am completely unprepared. I'm not sure if any of Maya's summery clothing will work for her, as she seems to be getting taller every day! And I know that her sandals won't fit. ACKACK! I had forgotten shoes!
Ok.. new obsession to concentrate on for a few days. :)